Dare to be different

well

okay,I didn't post a Journal here for a while...and I didn't want to write here again,but I feel like I should do something and I'm really bored,it's late no one is online and I need to do something...but...what should I write about??about my life??no,don't think so.I'm not special,don't do anything important...I just live my life,trying to live it my way,how I want it.but that's not easy while everything's changing around you,everything and everyone is moving on and you are the only one who's standing in the middle of the way,not moving a bit. It seems like everyone I know is startin' a new chapter in their lives.Most of them finished school this year,they start going to college,becoming a lawyer,teacher and what else they want to be in the future.others are leaving their home for another part of life and having their own little family now. I don't. Like I said before I am standing in the middle of the way,getting pushed by others,who are trying to move on.I want to move on too,want to change my life too.I want to begin my new chapter but...I don't know how to start.Maybe I'm not ready to start walking my way into the future. I am 19 years old,I could do whatever I want to but I'm not doing it. I bet that's typical for young people right after school...right? I think I just need more time to think about it.I need a break from home,from my life I am living every day.

well...I see I am thinking too much about future...haha I should go to bed instead of writing this blog in the middle of the night....I need sleep

so,Good Night ,see ya