Dare to be different

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okay,I didn't post a Journal here for a while...and I didn't want to write here again,but I feel like I should do something and I'm really bored,it's late no one is online and I need to do something...but...what should I write about??about my life??no,don't think so.I'm not special,don't do anything important...I just live my life,trying to live it my way,how I want it.but that's not easy while everything's changing around you,everything and everyone is moving on and you are the only one who's standing in the middle of the way,not moving a bit. It seems like everyone I know is startin' a new chapter in their lives.Most of them finished school this year,they start going to college,becoming a lawyer,teacher and what else they want to be in the future.others are leaving their home for another part of life and having their own little family now. I don't. Like I said before I am standing in the middle of the way,getting pushed by others,who are trying to move on.I want to move on too,want to change my life too.I want to begin my new chapter but...I don't know how to start.Maybe I'm not ready to start walking my way into the future. I am 19 years old,I could do whatever I want to but I'm not doing it. I bet that's typical for young people right after school...right? I think I just need more time to think about it.I need a break from home,from my life I am living every day.

well...I see I am thinking too much about future...haha I should go to bed instead of writing this blog in the middle of the night....I need sleep

so,Good Night ,see ya

The European Championship !!!!!

Did anyone of you guys watch the Final between Germany and Spain??If no,you have missed a great match!

The first few minutes I really thought Germany would win this game,because they were better than my fave(spain^^) but then,after 33 minutes Fernando Torres made a really nice GOAL!! You guys can't imagine how happy I was when I saw this....I made a video,but I deleted it....(stupid me-.-)

I am so happy and glad Spain did it!!

I got tagged by kochamxczekolade

The challenge:  List 12 songs that cheer you up.

The rules:  Tag 10 people...then those people should tag 8 more after that.

 

ooookay ;)

1. Jeff Buckley-Hallelujah

2. Fettes Brot-Bettina

3.David Guetta-Baby when the Light

4. Culcha Candela- Ey DJ

5. Czeslaw Niemen-Moje Miasto

6. Amy Winehouse-Back to black

7. Kelly Clarkson- Addicted

8. September- Cry for you

9.Ringside- Tired of being sorry

10. Eurythmics-Sweet Dreams

There are many many more songs which cheer me up...

I tag everyone who wants to get tagged...;) so feel free to do this :)

The last few days were so...I don't know how to describe them.
Everything seems to be wrong,I fail in everything and I have no power to make it right again. I don't know what's happening with me but it seems like I am changing myself and my life and I can't control it...I don't like changes because in my life there were so many things happening,bad things I don't want to go through again.
I'm so hollow,need more energy
I hope it's just a phase I am going through...
well,nobody cares what I am talking about,but that's ok I just needed to write it down

10. Last person you laughed with?: martin

I tagged crudday,winiary :)

In 2008 Europe will look at two little countries...Austria and Switzerland. Why?Because they will be the host of the UEFA Euro 2008. The European Championship will be from June 7th 2008 till June 29th 2008 and I think everybody in Europe will watch some matches,especially matches from group C with Netherlands,France,Romania and Italy!!

Today was the final draw in Lucerne/Switzerland which served up a number of mouthwatering contests,notably co-hosts Austria against neighbours Germany in Group B.

France and Italy are all-too familiar rivals having faced off 2006 FIFA World Cup final,a match won by the Azzurri,and also in qualifying for these finals.
Austria and Germany,the three-time winners, were drawn alongside Croatia and a Poland team who are making their debut at this level.

Switzerland will open on 7th June with a Group A game against the Czech Republic in Basel. Turkey and Portugal make up that section.

there are 4 Groups with 4 Teams:

Group A:                                             Group B:
Switzerland                                          Austria
Czech Republic                                    Croatia
Portugal                                               Germany
Turkey                                                 Poland

Group C:                                            Group D:
Netherlands                                        Greece
Italy                                                    Sweden
Romania                                             Spain
France                                                Russia


I'm so exited you all can't believe!!
 My Team Poland is making their debut and they have to play against the german team...
I know that the german team is really good but I hope there will be a better team. Not in group B because I don't think Germany will lose here but later...

Yes,yesterday the ema's were in Munich and a friend of mine was there(without me:((  ) She was so exited and I was too,even though I was watching it at television.
It was fun to see Amy Winehouse, Avril Lavigne, Mika etc.performing. But my favourite Performance was....please don't hurt me and don't try to beat me....tokio hotel...they did a good job with the "monsoon"mashine xD.
I think The Foo Fighters did a great job,too and Snoop Dogg was a good host^^.
I don't think that My Chemical Romance did a good Performance...I thought they would rock but they didn't :(

all in all it was a nice party...could have been better but still I liked it :)

Yesterday my friends got married and I was there.Well,I was at the "wedding-ending-party" and it was beautiful. Tina,my friend, was wearing a awesome and gorgeous pink dress!She was so pretty I almost cried when I saw her^^ It was so much fun there!cool people,yummy food and good conversations and just fun^^ aaah....by the way, she was throwing the bride's bouquet and I was the lucky one who had to catch it^^ so,I think I'll be married soon...I just don't know who will become my husband :P

school's making me sick and tired...It's so busy you can't imagine.
Hell I don't know how to get rid of all those problems around me.But i have to learn how to deal with it...

okay okay,I'll stop^^

well,school started 2 weeks ago and I'm really busy right now. This will be my last year hopefully and then I'll see what I'll do with my life. I always wanted to go as an au-pair to england or spain but I think I won't do...Let's see what'll happen...

This Month will be full of parties,stress and tears.
One of my best friends will get married this month(September 20th) and we are all really exited =D I will do a lot of photos ^-^
This month I will get my first tattoo(september 13th) and I can't wait to get it.

I was watching televison a few minutes ago and I saw Enrique Iglesias performing "Tired of beeing sorry"...I'm confused :S I mean I love this song,but only when its performed by Ringside!!

well,at this point I'll stop and wish you all a great new week!

yes,this is chapter one...Life's a book and everytime something's happening,a new chapter begins ;-)

well,every year at the last day of school before holidays start here in Saarbruecken there is a big Open Air, the Halberg Open Air and I was there....as every year =P It was so much fun!! There were a lot of bands on stage,known and unknown bands. There was Reminder,Small State,Nevada Tan,Empty Trash,etc. But I was so excited to see TOMMY THE CLOWN!! It was great! How he and his crew are dancing is just amazing!!awesome!! After that show I met Larry from Tommy The Clown and I did Photos of him and one with him =D I will upload them tonight so you'll see it =D It was a special day for me,because I met a friend again,who I didn't see for aaages and,hahaha it was fun...some guys thought I am a celebrity hahaha they wanted autographs and photos hahaha guys you can't imagine how shocked I was xD but it was a cool feeling ;-D

Finally I bought a new cam so I can do better photos and videos =D not really interessting,but I wanted to tell you that xD

Tomorrow's my flight to Poland and I am really excited...I never flew so I don't know the feeling when you fly ^-^
Ok guys,maybe I will be online sometimes,but just next week,then 4 or 3 weeks not...I don't know how to live without PC and Internet xD

Have a nice and blessed time and I hope to see you again :D
<3 Nicole

haha it´s the first time I post a Journal...I just thought I should try it too^^

Hmmm.. weekend was quite good...I went to a party with my friends in france in a cute little house and it was really fun...I drank too much of my beloved pink vodka and black vodka/apple juice and we played Singstar without Playstation and TV^^ I was dancing singing and freakin' out with my girls and somebody made a video of us but it's too embarrassing to show it here^^

okay,there are only 2 weeks left until my first flight ever. I never was on a plane before so it´ll be very interesting I think^^ I'm really exited about it but at the same time a little bit afraid. I'm glad it'll be a short flight. I will only fly to Poland so it won't take too much time....I think an hour and a half^^ but that doesn't really matters because that won't take the fear...

Okay,since I'm a little girl I always wanted to get tattoed(sound like I'm a freak...^^) and today I went to a cool and nice tattoo artist and he gave me advices and asked me if I really wanna do this because it's something what will last forever.......the end of this story is that I'll get my tattoo September 13th *yaaaa*^^ Anna and Jenny,my girls,will get tattooed too so I won't be alone;) oh and my next piercing is comming soon...:-D

okay,I think I should stop here talking so much bullshit ^^

Have a great and peaceful week whoever and wherever you are

Nicole